Holding On To Let Go

You told me you loved me
but in the end we broke up
I didn't want to leave
knowing we gave up

I tried to say goodbye
telling myself you were no longer mine
as long as you were happy
I thought I'd be fine

My body lingers here
watching you over there
wondering what your doing
wishing you could feel my stare

all the bad habits i made you quit
now belong to me
the moment I lost you
i could no longer believe

filling my lungs with smoke
drinking through my days
I can see you everywhere
through my broken heart craze

my mind abused by time
and imprisoned by fear
I've cried for so many nights
I couldn't force my eyes to shed one tear

kneeling on my knees
with sadness in my veins
you brought me all my happiness
now your the reason for my pain

emotions consume my body
I start to go insane
nothing more than feelings
I no longer know their names

breathing comes to a slow
silence begins to scream
I want to close my eyes
but I can see you in my dreams

my stomach starts to churn
as my mouth goes dry
the emptiness inside
makes me want to die

they said to let you go
if you come back it's meant to be
I'm trying to believe
but you're still not here with me

I survived our time apart
that was meant to kill me
so you came back into my life
wanting nothing to do with thee

you'd be the one to write
I'd be the one to read
now I'm here writing poems
but you're not here to see