Confusion

Sick of being,
Raped and used.
After it happens,
I'm always confused.

I love this person,
But he uses me.
Is this because,
I cant disagree?

I know he don't love me,
Yet I play the game.
Am I a s|ut?
Do I get the shame.

I always thought it was wrong,
So why do I do it now?
The one night stands,
Was something I wouldn't allow.

I think I'm hoping,
For something more.
When he is looking at me,
Like a one night wh0re.