Its been a long time since I put words to paper. I have so many feeling inside I do not know where to begin. I am afraid that if I start writing I want know where to end. I have so much to say that I do not know where to start, but understand that every word that I write is coming from the heart. My life has taken on many changes over the years and many of those changes have brought me to tears. Do not get me wrong I had a pretty good life considering my background and how hard I had to fight. Words to a paper whoever thought it could hurt so much to have to read your own words to know you have lost touch. I lost touch with the person that I used to be. I gave up on myself a long time ago only to understand now that it is a one woman show. As I put words to paper I am starting to see that I no longer need a man to validate to me. I know now that it has to all start with me. I have to be happy in order for others to see that I am strong, that I will not crumble when something goes wrong. To know that happiness has to start from within and no amount dollars or friends will make me into something that I am not because I now know that happiness can only come from the heart. I will no longer live in fear of being me nor will I allow others to consume my thoughts cause from this day on it will be a new start. I know that there is no quick fix and I will take it day by day, but as I put words to paper I know that I am going to be ok.
