If i truly have ANY heart at all

Her words are slicing through my brain,
Make them stop,
Please,
I'm going insane!!
Her haunting insults drive me to the blade,
I cut and slice away each word spoken from her bitter lips.
I shatter the mirror,
For in my reflection,
Through her eyes I see,
EVERY flaw, and the true ugliness I consume,
The ugliness she's always pointed out to me
It's a love - hate mother - daughter relationship
I've always wanted to be good enough for her,
But only through my last cut, will she EVER be happy,
When I have FINALLY rid herself of me
Don't you see,
If I truly love her,
Then I'll slide the razor,
If I truly have ANY heart at all,
I'll accept that this world is better off without me,
So I can bleed away, my pitiful excuse for a life