Grandma

I know that you are in a much better place
but i can't keep myself from saying, i wish you were here so i could see your face.
i miss the way you smiled when i looked over at you in the car on those hot, sunny days.
i don't want you to know, but ever since you left everything has just been a haze.
you were the one who was always there
if you were doing something and i need you, you would put it down without a care.
at times we yelled at one another, like any two people in a family would.
but we would always go back to where we should.
you weren't ashamed of the way you were
i loved you more than anything, and that was for sure.
because i am selfish, i wish you were with me
but i can't do that because i know up there you are as happy as can be.
you need to know that since you left i lost my best friend
but i know that i will be able to see you when my life does end.
in the meanwhile i will try to do my best
make you proud of the girl you see and never second guessed.
i will use the wisdom and love you left me with
forever i want you to know that you left me with a special gift.
i will never come along another woman as wonderful as you
i will be happy though, because i know you hated it when i was blue.

you are greatly missed. grandmother, mother, great grandmother, sister, daughter, aunt, and friend.

JANETTE 9/8/36-12/12/07