Suicide thoughts

I pray at night
to take care of the ones I love.
I pray at night to have him take me.

I cry my self to sleep because living is not an option.
I cry because I know that I will miss them.

I hope and wish for him to take me away.
I hope and wish for him to take the pain away.

I close my eyes and look at the possibility of me being gone.
I close my eyes and look at the people I love
but cant help the thought of suicide contemplating
in my head.

I lay on my bed and cry and cry to how it would be if I were gone.
I lay on my bed and cry and cry on how much it hurts to feel so alone.

Even though alone I am not
Even though they all love me.
It comes from within....the thought of me being gone.

The thought of me closing my eyes and wishing I would just disappear.