Despise

You watched me crying from the corner of your eye
you didn't say anything
i watched you from a distance
i hide behind my perfect smile
i did it all for you
should i be sorry?
mesmerized by your touch
floating in heaven by your eyes
why is it me that you despise
Your eyes are dull , your hands are clenched
You hide behind those perfect lies
It won’t fool me
i want to run in your arms again
i want your hug to takes my breath away again
i want you to look at me they way you once did
i want to laugh with you again
i want to tell you about my day
i want you to care again
i want you to listen to me again
i want you to tell me your stupid jokes again
i want you not to ignoree me anymore
i wish you would listen instead of block me out
i miss you so much that it will make you wanna cry
why, why is it me you despise