For my best friend and boyfriend

I just need to tell you
And write to explain
That i don't understand
Why you made me feel this pain

It doesn't seem real
I still see your face
I'm so messed up now
I'm a complete disgrace

I'm so deeply wounded
I reminisce over your voice
I cant believe you did this
You had that choice

You chose to do it
To take your own life
And I'm the one living
And trying in strife

I'm trying and trying
To move on
And forget
But i cannot erase the fact that we met

I loved you
I miss you
But we are apart
And my soul is broken because you have my heart

I'm not a whole person
I'm bits of one
I cannot rectify
This mistake that you've done

I'm wounded
I'm aching
This pain is so deep
It haunts me
It breaks me
I cant even sleep

I miss you
I want you
I need you right here
I just want my baby to be close and near

But you don't exist now
I'm left alone
I'm the one hurting
I wait by the phone

I pray you still love me
You better be worth the fight
The fight with my emotions
I battle each night

I hold back those tears
Every single day
I hope you still love me
I hope and i pray

I wish i could go back in time
And id call and tell you this
Baby i love you so so much
And i couldn't live without your kiss

I love you even when we fight
I miss you when your not near
Id be forever wounded
If i couldn't have you here

You are the one i look up to
You are my only friend
Id spend forever in your arms
IL love you till the end