My secrets keep growing darker

You tell me to save my tears
for another day
but the pain remains
and doesn't go away
the war on my inside
two parts of me gone awrier
two parts about to collide
family won't leave me alone
instead they break my heart
i wish it was stone

i feel controlled
trying to grasp
everything i can't hold
i feel collapsed
like i am running cold

i know i should behave
but i'm nervous
i feel tamed
but not even i can control this
since when was ignorance bliss

i feel controlled
trying to grasp
everything i can't hold
i feel collapsed
like i am running cold

your very scent
contaminates me
your vocal vent
it gravitates me
is there a chance
that you will be the one to save me

i feel controlled
trying to grasp
everything i can't hold
i feel collapsed
like i am running cold
i feel trespassed
like i am being told off
by one persons hands