My Act

I'm dying inside,
why can't you see,
emotions I attempt to hide,
it's like my thoughts,
and feelings,
are locked in this box,
it's my admiration for you,
the reason why,
I feel so blue,
because to you,
I'm only a friend,
who says you're mean but is still nice,
but the truth is,
I think of you almost every single night,
but you like my friend,
this is the reason,
I'm saddened to no end,
but sadly I've accepted the fact,
that you and I,
will never get passed that,
that wall of friendship,
and feelings of me that you lack,
because its indescribable,
these feelings for you that i have,
and when I'm around you,
it's like I have to wear this mask,
because if you knew the truth,
you'd be out of my life fast,
this I cannot have,
so to avoid that,
I'll just go back,
to my script and my act.