Mommy

I was young, but I remember
All like it was yesterday
Mom and dad were having trouble
So daddy left, he went away
Things for mommy started getter worse
All I could do was sit and watch
Two part time jobs, late nights at clubs
I don't remember seeing her much
Week-end nights were free
But she wasn't watching me
She went to the bar
Said it eased the pain
Came home late
But I always waited up
Every night it was the same
I remember the look in her eyes
When she had told me this was all a lie
Mommy liked to hit me
But I don't know why
I could tell myself things would get better
Mommy would return to normal
But this never came
It started getting worse
Mommy lost a job
More time to drink, more time for the drugs
One night she was early
And I hadn't finished my chores
Mommy started yelling
So I just tried to ignore
But this she didn't like
So she started getting violent
And I started to run
But mommy was much faster
And I know I was in danger
When I awoke the next morning I looked in the mirror
One black eye, a bloody lip, some pain to my leg
And some swelling in the wrist
All these years of loving her
All the years I trusted her
Now I hate her
I wish her dead
I walked in the kitchen
Mommy still looked mad, she had a gun in her hand
I screamed "NO" as she smiled
How could she do this
I was going to die
But to my surprise
She cocked the gun
And shot her head
Mommy fell to the floor with a loud crash
Leaving me here to watch her die
Now mommy is gone
And I am all alone
My wish had come true
But still I miss her so.