Who am i really?

I live 3 life's and all are hidden from the other
i live the church girl
i live the out going happy girl
but deep down in side
Wat my true life is
the emo girl from hell
I'm not trying to hurt u
I'm not trying to scare u
i just thought that u should know
I'm so confused
so hurt
so corrupt
so dangerous i must say
but is this really me
or is it a phase
that only some dark kids
actually go threw
i want to know
which one am i
suppose to be
the happy out going school girl
who doesn't have a care in the world
or am i suppose to be the Innocent church gal
who praises the lord all the time
or am i suppose to be this
and let my dark side reveal
or as i said is this just a phase
that only some girls go threw
because right now I'm know as the cutter

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