I am an ex-cutter [words i will never speak]

Tears are streaming down my face
Do you want to know why
Do you dare enter my mind

Tears are streaming down my face,
Because I want to stop cutting, I really do
But
I am an ex- cutter
are words you will NEVER hear me utter

Tears are streaming down my face,
Because I'm trying SO HARD,
But getting nowhere
I always wind up back here
scarred

Tears are streaming down my face
Because I feel hopeless of what I cannot reach
And
I am an ex-cutter
the words of which i dream
But will NEVER EVER speak