Being Left behind

I feel like I'm being left behind,
your now an ex-cutter,
And I'm unbelievably happy for you,
But why can't I do it too

We said we would stop
And you have proved yourself so strong,
But here I am
still bleeding

Not that I want you to stay in this addiction with me
No, your progress makes me happy,
I don't know what I'm saying
I just feel like I'm being left behind,
And I'm so tired of trying
But keep going,
Just leave me here,
Because sweetie I'm so happy for you

[i am happy for you]