NOW dont you see?

All I can say is I'm sorry as I slide this razor across my side
Please, don't try to stop me
Because I deserve this,
don't you see?

I didn't save him
that's my true regret
That's my sin, here
Written in crimson red
in his name
Now written so beautifully across my side
See my blood?
it drips of shame,
See my scars?
They're laced with guilt
I take the razor once again,
Because
I deserve this,
look at my side
NOW, don't you see?

[still working on the end]