Forgiveness

I lie here reading your words
a million thoughts running through my mind
my heart aching at the thought of you
being back in my life
as another tear rolls down my face
i wish i didn't love you as much as i do
if i dint than i wouldn't be feeling this way
your asking me for forgiveness
but I'm asking you how...
how do i forgive someone
that has only caused me pain?
how do i forgive someone
that never proved they really loved me
how can i trust you
when you've never given me a reason to
how do i tell my heart to stop loving you?
i want to let you go
but that seems to be something
i could never do
i want to walk away
but my heart is still with you...