Funeral for a friend

Everything seems a blur,
Maybe that's just the tears in my eyes.
Even though I know he's gone,
This just doesn't seem right.

We were meant to be friends forever,
I guess forever ain't so long.
But forever will always be in my heart,
I guess he knew that.

I feel so crazy, insane,
I can't think straight.
Its like the world is so unfamiliar,
I want to scream, but I can't remember how.

The world turns grey,
I feel so dull and insecure.
I lift a gun to my head,
Now I know what he meant by forever…. BANG