Confused

Confused between the two.
Sometimes I wish you never trusted me with what you told me.
Then I wouldn't be hurting so much.
I love you and I really wanna be with you but I can't.
I know how you are and while I'm away you'll have a sideline like every smut out there.
You say you got a strong feeling I'm a play you but its because your gonna play me.
I dint know what to do.
Leave my girl or stick with her.
Between those to things I wanna leave her because I know I could find better but I can't.
My girl need someone like me in her life.
The reason I dint is because I want her to know I Love her. I love the good and bad about her but me and her wont last.
I would never trust her again.
One of these days that confusion will come to an end