Mommy

I can't fall in love
I've seen what they've done to you
I can't even trust myself
I don't know whats real, what's true

The moment you trusted them
they pushed you away
I know that that could happen to me
I saw you get shattered in every way

You let me see you broken
scarred and shaken with no more hope to spare
i didn't know what to do
so you assumed i didn't care

You told me i was the perfect one
that so much was going for my
and that guys are not worth it
that love isn't what it seems

Now when that boy loves me with all he has
i only give him a piece
I'm afraid of getting hurt like you
of losing him to the ever moving breeze

Can't you see i'm deathly afraid?
I have no expectations of him
I doubt his promise of "forever"
because i've seen those promises turn grim

lies and hurt, deceit and secrets
you've told my everything without discretion
I've seen you, first hand, writhe in pain
I've seen you healing and then you regression

I don't see you for you
you used to seem so strong
now i see a lost little girl
who couldn't have been more wrong

i can't trust, fully love, or believe
I'm not sure if i ever will
For now i may live on and lose him
live my life, without its thrills.