Shouldn't have let this happen

Why did i let you in ?
I don't understand
I promised myself never to let anyone get so close again
But somehow you got me to let my guard down
And now i can't stop thinking about you you're even in my dreams
I shouldn't feel this but i strangely enough can't stop it
I shouldn't be thinking about you almost every day

I shouldn't look forward
to every time i see you again
to be able to
Just be lying in you're arms
Just to get that feeling that
everything will work out
to feel that great like it's all ok
To just wanting to ly there
all day and night
just because it feels so great so right.

I've never needed anyone
I could do everything on my own
I'm still able to do that
but somehow its different now
I'm still able to fix my own problems
and to survive on my own
Just as before
But when it comes to you
I just can't seem to get a grip
i want to be able to tell you everything and to trust you completely
but i shouldn't want that
its way to dangerous
its for a good reason I keep many things to myself
but somehow all those reasons don't seem so important anymore when I'm with you
you already know more than most people about me
there are only really two people in the world who know more than you right now
but somehow all the rules I made for myself and the promises I made
don't seem that important anymore
when it comes to you
but they should
I really shouldn't be feeling this
I should stay safe here
on my own
I've learned to be lonely
I've accepted that
but you just screwed everything up
I'm starting to open myself to much way to much
you broke down the walls i put up so carefully
and you broke through them like it was almost nothing
I Hate you for that!!!
But even that fact can't stop me from falling more in love with you.
And wanting to trust you even though thats the most dangerous thing to do
But when I'm with you everything seems to fall in to place
There is not really any pressure
all that matters falls in to place
Its like it always has been that way
I have no idea why this is
Its as well a great as dangerous thing
Somehow also scary
But it's to late to block you out now
I don't think i could do that anymore
I would almost do anything for you
I hate the fact that you have such a great control
Over me
Over my heart
that I love you
I really shouldn't have let this happen
But now its to late
I can't even go a day without al least once thinking or dreaming of you
So I'll have to take the jump I don't have any other choice other left anymore.