A few broken pieces

There are no words to express the feelings I am feeling now
There is no name, no label, no why, or how
There is only this weight sighing heavily on my heart
This weariness of watching you take me piece by piece and apart

You gave me a friendship I only wanted more of
And you showed me how this beautiful friendship just wasn't enough

So I came to you in body and in soul, ready to move on
I broke down the walls for you that I had built so steady and so strong
I let you hold me when I was afraid of even that
I let you make me believe in you when doubt was all that I had

How could you stop this, before it had a start
How could you bare me of my dignity, when it was you whom did not play their part

I do not understand how we could have lost it all in hours before day light
Our talks, our laughs, the secrets you bore to me in a whisper or sigh

You hurt me so much I can't help but sit in self-pity and wallow
My heart stuck in my throat, each time I see you it gets harder and harder to swallow
I hate you for what you've done to me
For not being able to admit it to my face of your own hypocrisy

For still stealing my breath away every time you walk by
For making me cringe every time I hear your familiar voice, for being a lie

I don't know what else I can say, for you won't let me say it
Are you that afraid to look inside, to be wrong and admit it?

You're a coward hiding away yet still you're this part of me
You are selfish, you are cold, you're this person I've never seen

Though I swear I saw this coming all along, you got inside anyway
In my thoughts, in my dreams, in a simple conversation, you are there always

And you're still there, scratching at my skin from outside and in
It might be a while before I stop feeling you, but sooner the better.. when I never have to see your face again.