Difficult to Keep

Promises are never easy
To keep them all the time
Sometimes you just get pushed
Too close to the line

I swore that I would stop
And so far I've held strong
But pieces of my are breaking
And it doesn't seem so wrong

Maybe just a little
Bend the rules a bit
A tiny little scratch
Just a little knick

No one will have to see it
No one will have to know
And then I'll have kept my promise
So long as it doesn't show

Yet my conscience fights my logic
It tells me I cannot
Because I may lose my best friend
And really she's all I've got

But it is just so tempting
And I would feel alive
I know my limit
I know I'd survive

And still I see her face
The tears held in her eyes
I can hear her voice crack
When she confronted my lies

And when she saw my arms
And quickly turned away,
I can still see the pain
I caused for her that day

I promised her I stop
Again and again
And she kept on trusting me,
Believing until the end

How could I have done this?
Broke an innocent friend,
How I could have hurt
The only person I could depend?

I didn't deserve a second chance
A fourth, or a third
Why did she give them?
I can never be sure

Yes, promises are hard to keep
But my conscience has made it clear
I must never break it again
If I want her to stay here.