Joy is What I Tell, But The Pain Is What Exist Within Me

I walk around everyday with my head up hoping that people dont see the pain within me, because when I look in the mirror thats all I can see. I try to my put my heart in everything i do and almost be perfect, but as I go through life with all my heartaches I'm noticing it's not worth it, So I'm about to just say forget it.

I have dreams just everybody else to where i picture myself late at night people calling my name while I'm modeling down the runway in lights. People always seem to judge the outside of me, by thinking I'm this perfect little girl living in this perfect Lil world.

I may be blessed but I'm reality I'm just stressed. Sometimes I feel like I'm left (not behind) but on whats fair because I feel like no one care, but I dont have no one special to share with how I feel anytime so I just hope I can bury each and every time.

The problems I deal with (in this big world is so small) but (in my little reality is so big) and thats exactly why i stay depressed and stressed over and over again, because If it ain't boyfriend trouble, its me and mother getting into it trouble.

I live the true meaning of money doesn't buy happiness because mostly all I get in life is sadness...