In My Life Today

Okayz wellz i'm not really the same person i was once before..the one that peopled loved my happy self wen i was happy back in the dayz...i'm the same person its jus that i feel like im trapped in a box an the world hates me or something but i kno thats not it...

An wat i use to care about in life dont matter to me anymore...cuz of all the fueled of dramaz,hate,an jealously that i have in my sooo called life today....I feel like i want to give up living my life here...but i really dont want to cuz i still got my friends an all but yah not the same anymorez i think idk...

I feel like my world is fallin apart for me...an now i dont feel like waking up in the morning or goin to school anymorez...wellz i mean i wanna go to school an pass an grauate an get good grades...but i jus dont feel like goin anymorez i dont no why sooo dont ask me...an i somthimes blame myself for not doin the things im suppose to do...even though i kno wat the right thing do is...but i jus dont wanna do dont kno why though...

YUp sooo thats wats happening in my sooo called life today havin dramaz,hate,n jealousy goin on...i wish my life was like how it was before wit no dramaz hate or jealousy...but i guess we can't do that now...i jus have to deal wit wateverz goes my way i guess an jus live wit it for the rest of my life...an now i kno that there is no such thing as a perfect life...even if u try to make it perfect ut life will never be cuz there is things that are goin to happen an it wont be good at all it will be bad somtimes....But i kno that i cant live life on my own cuz i need pplz to help me along the way an i dont wanna feel like im worthless or not good enough an i hate bein helpless all the time an thats not good for me at allz...

...Jus wish my life was how it was before....