Just Because

I had to hide the knife away
for fear Id start to show
the pain that I have inside
that bright red neon glow

already I have carved a heart
the letters BFFL on me
covered by my clothing
where no one will ever see

so next time when you say
that you are bleeding all alone
it will be a secret lie
because you will not have known

I care about you more
than anyone in the world
I know that you care too
but im afraid that Ill loose hold

already I was tempted
by that shiny gleaming blade
but on my wrists no marks
have there ever been made

no one would ever guess
all the hurt I feel inside
because i mask it really well
behind the smile that I hide

Just because my wrists are clean
doesnt mean I dont bleed too
and just because I have him
doesnt mean I dont want you