I'm Not XXXXXXX

Here I'm sitting while I'm writing this ..
my hand are shaking
every time i cry with it
i can't explain why
some people care and feel and ask the broken , the one in pain what's wrong
they could feel I'm not alright ..
But , i don't know how they know
by the way i talk
they can't see my hands are shaking
I'm confused how this life is SO CRUEL
i hate it when it is like this
i wish the world could see me ,that I'm collapsing ..
i get this mood out of the blue ...
what the hell is going on with me
i feel , my heart beating is slow and slower that my chest is blowing hardly
i feel my whole body i melting with painful feelings ..
while I'm numb while people pass by me not knowing that I'm different
that I'm the one trying to help someone . but they just don't need help ..
it makes me feel that I'm not good enough to help them
i try my best to success by all my dreams go away
ALL i want to is GO to my dream ..
To my unforgettable place ..
that i call it HOME ..
Victoria , Canada
When I grow Up .. You Will See I'm Not in the Current Home ..
If You Miss Me , You Can Come To Me ,,
Were people there see you and have feelings to you ..
People there SMILE TO YOU
people there EVERYTHING
Canada .. I'm Coming To You SOON
So People Who crudities me of how much i talk in English .. Well .. NOW you know WHY i talk in English
Every time i speak , Write , Express In English ..
Just So You Know .. I miss my Home Canada With every Time I shed A tear .. Just Like Now ..:'(