Fear of acceptance

It's not fear of rejection
it's fear of acceptance
that stops me cold
enables me to move

like sparse thunderstorms
in the desert
long awaited, ecstatic
yet short
and hardly efficient

like old married couples
who once where right
for each other for their lives
now drift apart

people change, people grow
for better, for worse
it's hard to tell
the only certainty
is it's never the same

the fear of acceptance
then growing apart
is what stops my heart
from love