Condemned and Alone

All alone
Once again
Not one solace
Not one friend

Left for dead
Their untrained eyes
Missed the changes
Missed the signs

Completely abandoned
I slip away
Nothing to do
Nothing to say

Pushed aside
They thought it could wait
I filled up with anger
I filled up with hate

My heart is beating
But it doesn't seem real
The more it pounds
The less I feel

My tears keep flowing
They will not cease
I don't want control
I just want release

My skin is crawling
I feel so cold
I want someone to talk to
I need someone to hold

All by myself
Pain seeping in
My emotion's erratic
My sanity's thin

Condemned and misguided
How could this be?
I'm no longer real
I'm no longer me.