How does it feel

How does it feel
When your world falls apart
When nothing seems to matter
When you lose your heart
When nothing exist
But the endless pain
When love seems to be only
A sick game
When you live, you die, and you are forgotten
When all you know has
Expired and rotten
When you don't know
Whether to live or to die
When you wont to scream
It comes out as a sigh
You smile big
Then cry yourself to sleep
Just to make them HAPPY
Whats life worth to keep
When you look through the glass
At the smiling people within
That was your past
Never again
But how you wish
It hadn't gone bad
Now pain is all
I ever have