This is what i was and what i was becoming..

I woke up one day and this is what i told myself...
"welcome to this place you will be staying in for quite some time...
for pleasure and a smile on your face it will cost me all of my happiness.
once it was all gone, I felt so alone.
remember when I first came
i felt like I belonged?
its gone now vanished before our eyes.
have you ever thought about the meaning of life?
it now means nothing to me.
you cannot go back now
you know nothing but life depression has given you
welcome to Hell
you wont know how to live out there
all you know is the empty feeling that drugs give you
and the headache that wild parties give you
and that man you wake up next to that makes you feel horrible all over again
because you don't know why you are naked
and what he is doing in your bed
heck you cant even remember his name!
you will have to suffer abortions the killing of your babies.
because your to damn stupid to know how to care for yourself,
so curl up in bed now sweetie because this is what your life is going to be."