Just

Just figuring out whats wrong with me
Just thinking of how im seen
Just thinking of what she has
Just thinking of whats left of my broken heart
Just trying to figure out how I let myself open to be torn apart..?
Just thinking about your face again?>!
Just trying not to hurt!!
Just regretting taking my heart off alert..,
Just about to cry
Just convincing myself its best to just to die!!..,
Just rembering your first words..
just fighting with myself about my stupidyity
just screaming at myselfs insanity
just regretting telling you
just trying to think of a better way to lie
just thinking everyones out to get me
just trying to forget what we could be�
just thinking that theres a reason for this pain
just thinking how easy it would be to slice a blade through my vein�
just hurting once more�
just thinking of giving out and falling again to the floor�.
just thinkin about your eyes
just thinking about my new found lies
just thinking about what we could have been
just thinking how im lost and really confused
just thinking about being dazed and forgetting all
just thinking whats up with you
just thinking of giving you a call
just thinking of faking and walking tall
just thinking about me and the way ive been latly
just relizing im lost and hurt
just thinking youre the reason my hearts never again going off alert
just relizing you healed me and caused me to be once more broken inside
just fussing over these tears that fall from my sore, tired eyes
just hurting over these fears that seem to make me tell these unnesicary lies
just thinking of needing some rest
just thinking of not thinking its for the best
just thinking of how im lost
just thinking of all this cost
Just thinking of this pain
Just looking at this blade against my vein
Just thinking do it just do it
Just screaming keep waiting,please stop this
Just thinking of one first last kiss.
Just thinking of being alone
Just thinking of this heart you broke
Just thinking if it would be better to hang myself from a rope
Just thinking if drowning would look accendetal
Just thinking no one would relize
Just thinking that fire would be nothing to analyze
Just wondering do you ever think of me
Just hurting again
Just learning new ways to pretend
Just finding it hard to sleep at night
Just tripin as you enter my sight
Just wondering why
Just thinking of all these lies
Just thinking about how to make it trough this disaster
Just thinking about how my lifes coming unglued
Just faking this smile so you wont see
Just covering up this pain youve carved into my heart
Just coming up with new ways to forget..
Just thinking howd id climb that rock so Id fall to my death
Just realizing that this bag could take my last breath
Just wondering what would happen if you needed me
Just thinking would you have come to late
Just wondering if id be here still in line for this once and a life time date
Just thinking of how my heart seems to be so cold
Just realizing of how im getting really old.
Just wondering if you share this feeling even though you hold the hand of another
Just wondering if you ever imagined us together
Just saying she doesnt bother me with her being with you
Just telling that the fact you lied and said youd still be my friend
Just making you see that you are why these thoughts of suicide are crossing my mind
Just thinking of how happy you must be
Just thinking of how sad it is that you and i never got the chance to be a we
Just wishing youd come to my rescue
Just wishing you save me from these thoughts
Just thinking of how I cared for you
Just realizing that I still do
Just thinking of how im such of fool for thinking that you and I were ment to be
Just realizing that your not scared for me
Just saying youll never know
Just thinking what if you show
Just thinking if you do could I give you chance number two..
Just forgetting all that I do..
Just rembering what you are
Just facing the fact that im alone
Just facing the fact that your really gone..
Just cant get away from this feeling that no one understands
Just rembering of how you asked me to kiss your hand
Just thinking maybe just maybe if I could
Just thinking if I could forget you maybe I would
Just wishing I never met you
Just saying id feel alone and hurt
Just thinking I wouldnt have a broken heart
Just sayin that youre the one who tore this piece of me apart
Just thinking of how she got to you first
Just thinking of your friends saying he needs you
Just thinking that you really do
Just thinking of how that would be amazing
Just thinking of how id be completely whole
just thinking of this heart ache
just thinking of how id break
just thinking of how to be stronger
just wondering do you ever regret saying yes
just thinking howd you like to feel this pain
just thinking that im scared and starting to go insane
just wondering of how to move on
just wondering if it would hurt at all
just considering wondering if id even feel better
just thinking of how you made me feel so much weaker..
just saying you knew this was coming
just wondering howd you react to me being dead
just wondering if I would be haunting your head..
just saying your not my only reason I have tons more
just thinking this burden is mine and not yours
just realizing you made it heavier
just thinking if asking to keep you as my friend would be to much to ask?!
Just thinking of how I should take grasp
Just wondering how to put these pieces back together that you tore apart
Just thinking of what I got
Just saying its not much! just me, and my broken heart..
xoxo.... mandi....