Unreal

This can't be happening I think to myself
It feels unreal
I feel detached
Disbelief
Lungs collapsing
My legs tremble
I can't support myself
Slump into the chair
Head in hands
Throat tight
Eyes burning
This is unreal
Close my eyes open them
Everything will be fine
You're not really gone
You can't be gone
I won't let you be gone
Weren't we laughing together just afew hours ago?
Was that us?
Was that a dream?
Is this a dream?
Please don't be gone, please let this just be a bad dream, please don't let this be real I pray
Realization
Don't cry, be strong
Thats what you'd want right?
If this is just a nightmare I'll never be bad again
Please
Unreal
You can't be gone
Unreal.