I had the most random dream about you last night.
Truth is, I dream about you most nights.
I've never wanted to admit it,
Didn't want to accept that I care,
But I do and it hurts that you're doing this.
When it comes to "us",
I only follow your lead.
Not that smart, am I?
Hate that this is still happening.
Why can't I be smarter?
And cut you loose?
Guess you're tired of me, my life, my stories.
I know I can't expect you to be my safety net,
But i miss u,
I miss my friend.
And I'm scared of what's to come.
Truth is, I need you,
Just can't do this by myself.
Aren't friends supposed to be forever?
You were supposed to be my one constant.
Feels like it was wrong,
To let you know how important you were.
I simply do not know life without you,
And don't want to start now.
Just want to hold on as long as I can,
Crazy desperation taunts me,
As I clutch at straws.
So sad that this is happening,
But it's something I have to do.
Have to pry my fingers open,
And let you go.
Don't want to...
But I have to...
Sigh.
I'll miss you though.
But all I can do is grant your wish.
