I don't desrve to dream

I lay it down
I forget where it ends
I no longer accept my stupidity
I borrow this trend

Should I stay?
Or should I follow?
I am nor longer a leader
for my heart is hollow

I skipped a page
I skipped a whole chapter
the book of life shortens
which each disaster

Burn my eyes shut
rub in the ashes
I don't deserve sight
or the grace it stashes

Behead my fingers
bury or defile them
I don't deserve touch
or the grace of seldom

Drowning in my sorrow
I guess is forever more
to dream about you
i only need once more