It was all pretend

The way you looked at me was such an utter lie
You penetrated my heart with things you implied
I raced with emotions and feelings only to be later mutilated.
The way I feel now is nothing and everything I anticipated.

I was only fifteen and I thought the idea was grand
Talking with you was fun, falling for you was never planned
Toying with my mind you now say you wanted to give into my ideal
Never once did you think of the hurt, you let ambitions seem surreal.

You've always been there to boost me up when I was down
I never could see the real reason behind your intentions, or why you stayed around
You were there for me when I cried guy after guy
It is the reassurance, you often supplied.

I sent you the letters written in ink sealed with a smile
You wrote back saying, see you in awhile.
I've never understood, how we became so close
Maybe it was a longing, and the love that doesn't come from most.

Why my feet get tangled up in weeds and brush, I'll never know
I am weak at good-byes and get stuck on hellos.
Too naive and optimistic, I buy into whatever is said.
However I have grown on this, prepared for the journey ahead.

This time we've come to an end.
There's always a time you have to grow up and stop playing pretend.