Torn

Yesterday I said goodbye to the woman I love
today I feel so brave
where does that come from?
because yesterday I didn't

Yesterday I felt sick
Sick in the stomach
That sinking feeling you get
When your blood rushes to your feet

God it hurt, hurts so bad
there's no place to run and hide
but hell, who am I kidding
I'm not brave, I'm dying

I can't see a future without her
But she betrayed me
I should be angry
But I'm not, why is that?

She took my trust and crushed it
Took our future, chucked it on the ground
All the while professing her love
Does she have any soul?

But wait, I am angry
2 seconds ago I wasn't
See what she's done to me
I'm not even me anymore

Her inhumanity to me
I ball my hands in anger
And hit myself
God I hate her, god I love her

Where did her lies come from
slid off her tongue so easily
She thought she had me fooled
I knew but I stayed, I fooled myself

I've destroyed all her numbers
But look at the phone all the time
I just did it again, I'm trying to be strong
But she won't call, please

I've deleted all her messages
I've deleted her out of my life, Haven't I?
somebody, anybody, please help me
God how do I delete her out of my heart

You'll probable pass me on the street
And not even know that I'm dying on the inside
I look just the same
I promise I am

But I still love her
God I wish I didn't
Can somebody please turn out the light
Please I beg you