Not Good Enough

I feel like a wounded animal with no reason to live
A falling star that has no more light to give
With every step it seems Im walking on glass
Each crack resembling pain as it shoots over the mass
My sorrow falls out of my eyes in the form of tears
Finally releasing the pain from the build up of years
Sick of being told to always act my age
Cant you see Im blinded by this unbearable rage?
Never have I been held, told everything will be ok
Every time I needed comfort, I was pushed away
Now you tell me that you are ashamed
For everything, you find me to be blamed
Keeping me deprived is your way to be cruel
But my rebellious ways cause me to break the rules
You claim you dont know me, you wish to understand
Those years are gone now, so here stronger I stand
Your words no longer hurt me, only the past scars remain
Ill fight for my life, until theres no blood left in my veins
I hide in my music; conceal how I feel in what I write
Im not giving up yet, I wont go down without a fight
You say Ill never be good enough
Well you know what thats tough
Put up with me, Ive put up with you
And Im still standing after what you sent me through
Apologies are now far out of reach
Its too late for you to try and preach
You werent there to hold my hand while we crossed a street
You didnt take pride while I cheerfully stated trick or treat
You missed all my concerts, youd rather drink instead
In the end, I feel you wish I was dead
As I look back on my life I see how you made it rough
Still in the end I was never good enough. </3