I lost myself some time ago
looking back I had to know
things aren't always what they seem to be
nothings that easy for someone like me
I make bad choices, I wait to long
I hope for the best yet everythings wrong
My life is a lie my thoughts are unclear
I live a life of regret and fear
I crave for your prescence and loathe the heartache
I fear letting you go was my biggest mistake
when it came down to the choice I should've picked you
I wish that were the moment that I could redo
I wish it were your last name that I carry with me
Instead all that I have is your memory
I think in my life you were always "the one"
cause right when I left you my sorrow begun
my lifes filled with what ifs, and maybes, and dreams
my hearts filled with couldves and shouldves and screams
I want you, and need you, I miss you so much
sometimes I swear I can still feel your touch
my sorrows not new but forever it last
your not part of my present but forever my past.
