A careless night

I watch the empty glass,
as thoughts flood my head.
i watch as the glass fills up.
and a part of me goes dead.

my mind is still
as i take in the liquor.
my insides burn
and my senses flicker.

what i am tonight
i am uncertain.
my heart is crying
i am clearly hurting.

the rush of blood in my head.
and a sudden joy takes place.
another shot of this magic
and a queasy smile on my face.

the more i take
the less of me i feel.
oh! the pleasure,bitter sweet.
my misery i seal.

i watch the early sun
as i lie spent.
betrayed myself.
with only me to blame i am left to repent.