This will be an everlasting love (whether you want it or not)

The hurtful jabs or memory
or the enternal pain of end
having you once as a lover
or forever as a friend
neither, both, or inbetween?

these questions bring a tear
to my heart and my eyes
and then gently comes the fear
inabling me to decide

so all the pain
in jabs and waves
comes crashing down
without a sound yet loud enough
to dull my troubled mind