She wants to be found

Here is a girl, afraid to shed
the first tear, fearing if she cries,
tears wont stop
all she has is to hide the pain
faking a smile, putting just a face
such a heavy burden she cant handle herself

her parents splitting
now a faraway dad
with mom falling in drugs
without a place to call home
she is scare and alone

trying to sleep she remembers
vague memories of a shapeless family
trying to scape from reality
confusion is tormenting with simple questions
why drugs? why did he left?
she is breaking down and swears she wont cry
but we already know thats a lie

downstairs all she can see
is her unconscious mother lying
on the floor surrounded
by...so many pills

she has a letter on her hand
afraid to open it and read what it says
with "farewell" written in the envelop,
she knows what to expect

a couple of cruel words
took her breath
with tears in her eyes she finds hard to believe
she would not longer see him

she doesn't want to lIve
everything has been taken away
its so hard to breath
being embraced by pain

she is running away,
having nothing but scar on her wrist
she has no hopes but she hates feeling like this
everything seems down
and the only thing she wants, is to be found