Deaths Inside Me~

What is this feeling- I can't be sure,
Confusion clouds my mind,
Everything becomes a blurr,
A cold shiver goes down my spine,
All that was locked up within me,
Begins to slowly unwind,
Slowly dieing inside,
As I take my last few breaths,
Bottled up all this time,
Are all the things I never said,
Wishing to go back in time,
To do the things I wanted to do,
To tell you how I really felt inside,
To always speak what was on my mind,
But now I see that its to late,
So i'll just follow this death road,
Since I know it will lead me to my new home,
It's been inside me all this time,
So now i'll set it free,
Since I know no-one ever cared,
Never really cared for me,
Deaths inside me,
In case you can't see,
This is what everyone wanted,
They wanted it to happen to me,
Their getting their wish,
It's their dream come true,
For me to just go kill myself,
and finally be through,
So realize as your reading this,
This is also my goodbye too.