Happiness

I want so badly to be happy
But the problem is
I think I forgot how to be

At times I try to smile
Or make myself look happy
But in the mirror
Depression
Is Always staring back at me

I want so badly to laugh
But that noise is now just a faded memory
Laughter is no longer a part of me

Darling you tell me to be happy
And im trying
But can you please remind me how

[I feel like I really don't remember how, im not scared to be happy, I just don't remember how]