Night of my nightmare

Promises now broken of everything we had,
hurt me so much things can never go back,
you say you didn't mean to do it,
yet you wouldn't listen to me say no,
in the past it was okay,
things are different now,
you knew nightmares of my past still hurt me,
knew that's why i was alert towards guys,
yet you did worse than what happened back then,
what's worse you were meant to be a best friend,
but you threatened me if i didn't do what you say,
my phone rang as you said you were coming over,
i knew at the moment it wasn't gunna be a nice visit,
my mind racing, heart breaking,
knowing you were not a friend but a criminal,
as my door i opened i didn't move,
you came up to me,
there began my now worst nightmare,
if only the flashes from the photos could erase my memory,
maybe i wouldn't be breaking here on the floor now,
not only scared of what happened but what you can do worse now,
how did i ever love you,
how did i not see through you,
why did i put all my trust in you,
you were the one to pick me up when i was down,
yet now all i see is a nightmare,
of you and what you did,
playing over and over it's taking me under,
can't just pretend it didn't happen,
pretend that I'm ok,
hurting more than i thought was possible,
knowing you truly passed the line,
could get you in so much trouble,
but either way i'll lose my mind.