From my life to my heart: Confessions

Nothing happens in my life
No men, no money, no love
It's like I am meant to be alone
All by myself since the day I was born

Sometimes I think that there is something
Out there waiting for me
And I feel my heart yearning for its coming to me
But as always, it turns out to be something bad, or nothing.

I am still a kid in her sixteenth year
Sometimes I feel that way too
But, most of the time I feel older
Because I remember all the things that I have been trough.

I was in love-now I am not
I had plenty of friends-now I don't
I used to be happy and fulfilled
Now, I am empty and sad

I am disappointed in the world
People can easily kill and get evade
But, when I make a simple mistake
I am being killed and it is not for my sake!

I used to fly, so high, so high
Side by side spinning with the Earth
now I got both of my feet on the ground
And my wings are gone.

The world is not moving anymore for me
The hours are passing me by
I feel like I don't exist
And I don't know why.

I can't find myself agreeable to happiness
Some say I will always be useless
I didn't believe in those words
Now I do...but I know I am not that bad

All my times will come
I will have love and lot of friends
I just don't know when will it be that
I don't even know will it be like that

I have never been so stuck in a crowd
And I have never felt more alone than now
And with my both feet on the ground
My life confesses to my heart
That no matter what I do
I am destined to be alone.
Forever alone.