My Suicide Note (from the forgotten)

Dear Who Ever Cares To Read How I Died,

Now I am sure I am and was a disgrace upon this family since I came into it.
All I ever wanted was for you my parent; my guardian; my protector to see me more than a worthless piece of trash, but all you see when you look at me is a mistake that you wished never happened.
I have known for a long time that I am not worth the breaths I take each day and the space I fill up on this Earth.. I know I have no reason to live if I am a disgrace to a family that I once loved with all my broken heart.
This family was defiantly my hardest hello and easiest goodbye, I only wish I said goodbye sooner; before I completely lost faith.
What is my purpose on this Earth? because all I seem capable of doing is cutting my wrist and wishing I wasn't alive to begin with.
Maybe my life purpose was to live a few years of being a worthless piece of trash and get so fed up with it that I would just kill myself in the end.
Well if that was supposed to be my life then I lived it pretty damn well, it all went according to plans.
I guess I could say this is my suicide note, but who would care about how I come to the conclusion of killing myself?
No one will ever look for me after I have gone, that is the complete truth.

So from now on I will no longer be a disgrace upon this family..
There is no point in saying goodbye when they never even wanted me to say hello..

I strike my heart with my only friend, my knife.
As soon as I left the world I lived in all worries, all bad memories were gone. They say death is painful, but the truth is everything before death is painful.

Now I wonder how long it will take before someone will notice I have been gone... or will I forever rot in the last place on earth I felt safe from all the hurt and torture?

I wonder if even my family will have the smallest bit of remorse for putting me through hell while I still lived on Earth. Maybe they will even wish I didn't kill myself, but only to abuse me more for their pleasure.

Since I lost all faith and hope I don't care if anyone cares about finishing this letter written by a pathetic girl who never deserved to live in the first place.
Now I live in heaven and as happy as ever.

The forgotten,
Kaitlyn