Memories in time

Through sorrows a deep, loud, cry for help,
But silenced
Through the tissue of my brain
Cut short
Each breath undefined
What triggers these emotions unrefined?
Bitter and angry I look at the world
No. Wishful and desperate
I long so much NEED so much more
The shallow world envelops my life
Leaving me speechless once more.
But what would I say, if I could speak?
What words would dare approach the cold winter air?
What judgment would be passed upon my soul?
Rejection or fear of it radiates throughout me
Out of control, out of my hands
Spiraling fast, unattainable speed
Feeling so lost
Almost so scared
But what will be left in the end?
So little to start with
Much less remains
A broken heart can not be mended
Or if it can, the scars are deep and can be torn open
Stitches ripped out
A heart can be WILL be stolen so many times
Live through the pain of each day
Hold your head high if one can hold it at all
Do not give in
Do not let out
For what grief can be endured
Character building HA!
I do not believe in such a thing
My soul is touched, stepped on, TRAMPLED
By all these remnants of people, memories in time
Memories in time
Memories in time
Will fade and change and be repressed, but always the memories linger on
Plaguing, haunting in my dreams
The problems unresolved
The words unspoken
Always to remain deep SO DEEP within my soul.