Loneliness, I Liked it More

Where is everyone?
Why am I alone?
Is it because I'm different?
Or is it because I'm the same?

Why am I even here?
Why do I stay in this world?
Why do I keep this connection?
Why?

Everyone is somewhere else.
I'm alone because I push everyone away.
I don't mean to, but I can't help it.
What have I done, where did I go wrong?

The loneliness is killing me.
It's killing others too.
I want the others to come back.
I don't want to be lonely anymore.

I hear voices all the time.
Voices of friends long lost.
Shadows pass before me,
But I can't reach them.

My own little world has consumed me.
I want real people to visit.
I don't like this loneliness.
I don't like the silence.

“Follow my voice,” I heard.
So I did.
“Follow my shadow,” it said.
So I did.

A door, light through the cracks!
A way out!
Back to the real world!
I can't wait to see them again!

The door flung open,
Into a world of chaos and pain.
This isn't how I left it,
This isn't what I remembered.

But the door has shut,
I can't go back.
The voice that I heard,
Was his and hers.
At least there is something good,
In this new world.