I'm Right Here

I'm here!
I'm right here...
And you don't even see me.
Notice me
Acknowledge that i exist
That i care

That I'm always going to be here.
People always tell me "No matter what I'm here for you." I mean i couldn't even count the times I've heard that, And from people i love, from people i thought really loved me!

And how many times do you think they were actually there, there when i really needed them.
When my life was on the line...
Never...
Not once...

I just want one person to mean it! To actually be there... I'm not expecting to much am I?
Should i just not say anything? Should i just keep pretending? Should i remain emotionless, cold and dead to the world, to everyone?
I look like a calm sea, but the storm is underneath.
The fight and sadness is on the inside, burning up in my soul, bleeding it's way out of my wrists and spilling out of my eyes.
Behind closed doors,
In bathroom stalls
Behind my long bangs and glasses
And underneath the make up.

The loving, caring person thats inside of me is fighting it's way out, wanting to escape so badly and YELL OUT!
I am in need of love!
I just want a hug!
I just want to cry, and i don't want to be asked why!
I just want Some one to listen and not judge,
I want someone to hold me and not ask questions, not talk, just stand and hold my limp body up as my soul releases all thats left to inside.
All thats built up over the years, and when my soul is done, and there's nothing left to bleed out of my wrists and spill from my eyes...
Lay with me and hold me tonight, don't leave my side until the break of day light...
When it comes go ahead and leave
I'll be OK now
My heart Has left my Sleeve!