Scared

I'm lonely and I'm scared
I wish that he was here
But I don't know if I truly care

I miss him but I don't
I'm scared that he's my only hope
I don't want to lose him

I like him but it's not right
I lie awake at night
I'm confused by these emotions

I'm scared that it won't last
Like I might not have a chance
It's conflicting to say

But I think I don't love you
I don't even think I know how to
Or what it even is